14 June 2010

It's Easy

You know, it's easy to fall back on sarcasm and derision. It's easy to go negative. This is what I figured out recently: It is more difficult to hold your tongue, keep your eyes in place, and to breathe.

As a sarcastic person, I've been working on holding my tongue. I've failed many times but I am going to keep trying.

A friend mentioned the idea of watching a funny video when she was getting mired in frustration. I rolled that around in my head for awhile and decided that it is a good idea. Another idea that occurred to me was to just plug my headphones into my head and Peace Out. Use it as a filter: not letting negative in and not letting it escape either.

My mom visits Negative Town sometimes. I think that is why it bothers me so much. It bothers me equally when I realize that I've done the exact same effing thing. Argh.

It is easier, it seems, to keep up anger, sarcasm, and derision. For many of us, those are go-to emotions. I don't want it to be mine anymore.

Nor do I want to be PollyAnna. Well, that's simply not possible anyway. I just don't want the dark cloud of bitterness following me around. I prefer just a small whiff of it as I pass.

One of the lessons of history is that Nothing is often a good thing to do and always a clever thing to say.” ~ Will Durant

1 comment:

creative kerfuffle said...

ah---negative town. i visit there from time to time but i try not to linger. a big part of the reason i choose not to live there is because of the kids. holy crap but they pick up on everything. the girl visits negative town way too much. i don't know if it's genetic or part of being a teen.